"No other success can compensate for failure in the home."
-David O. McKay
I'm a stay at home mom and I couldn't be happier, but I didn't always want to be. I remember in high school telling my parents that I was going to travel the world, have an awesome career (as an inventor), and get married and have kids when I was done with all my big adventures. I got married when I was 21 and had Kenzie when I was 22. My life didn't turn out quite how my high school self wanted, but it turned out exactly how I want it now.
We had Kenzie one day after our 1 year anniversary and I couldn't be happier. But I didn't always want kids right away. I remember when Nick and I were engaged telling him that I wanted to wait 2-3 years before having kids. Because I wanted to travel and go on adventures with Nick before real life hit us. My life didn't turn out quite how my engaged self wanted, but it turned out exactly how I want it now.
We found out we were pregnant with our second in December and I couldn't be happier. But I didn't always want a second one so soon. I remember Kenzie being very difficult for the first year of her life. I will admit that there were definite moments when I wanted a job just to get away from poopy diapers, spit-up, and the screaming, but I knew that no career or amount of money would outweigh the blessings of being a stay at home mom. Looking back I don't remember all the poopy diapers, spit-up, and screaming. I just remember the baby smiles, cooing, jabber, and exciting milestones. And I can't imagine how I would feel if I had missed any of those moments. After Kenzie, I wanted to wait at least 3 years to have another baby. My life didn't turn out quite how my new mom self wanted, but it turned out exactly how I want it now.
Once I had Kenzie there was no going back. No going back to work. I didn't want to. There was no way I was going to let somebody else raise my child. I understand that everyone is in different situations and it's not always possible for them to stay at home with their children, but for me there was no other option in my mind then to stay home with my precious baby. It's definitely the hardest job I've ever had, but it's the best decision I've ever made.
I can't wait for my little boy to be here! I know my job will get a lot harder with two, but I'm ready for this new adventure in my life. It's going to be hard waiting 4 more months to meet baby B!
I am so grateful to all the wonderful mothers in this world and their example to me.